I have taken pause for several months during my Mom’s transition. She passed away October 20th. I was able to be with her for about a month during her final days on this physical plane. It was beautiful and at the same time tragic. I have never felt the combination of emotions my Mothers passing has generated. The flood of feelings are more potent and powerful than I could have imagined.
I am surprised however, that the most potent feelings are of love, gratitude and the joy of living this physical life with all it’s ups and downs, chaos and dramas. It has allowed me to reflect that yes, my life will end one day, so how do I want to live it. This is something one is drawn to reflect on throughout a lifetime, but it becomes very real and taken into deep consideration when one you are so close to, passes on.
It’s very final. I realize I will never see my Mother in her physical form again, ever. Yes, I believe we never die, yes, I believe there are opportunities for multiple lifetimes as a spiritual being, but it will never look or be the same again. I will never be the same again after helping my Mom birth back into pure freedom and love.
It has made me be more determined than ever to deepen my spiritual practices. With the expansion of consciousness of mankind in full swing, there are more people experiencing the truth of who they are while in physical form. That is a state of unshakeable love and joy for living. It’s a state where anything truly is possible, where letting go and letting God is the natural state, not just when you are in dire straits.
For me, letting go of the person I loved so unconditionally and so deeply is teaching me to let go and let God in other areas of my life. It just doesn’t make sense to make a big deal out of small things or even relatively big things as all of it will pass onto the next thing. It’s just the way of life. Our true way of living at our core is love. It is time to let go and let Love before I take my last breath. I want to experience the truth of who I am now and not wait until I leave this physical body.
Yoga continues to be the core foundation for this pursuit. The Sacred Pathways practices have been a major force of change to bring me to this point where my mind is quieter, the judgements smaller, the veil thinner and thinner.
Jan Mead PT LAc is the creator of Sacred Pathways Yoga, a practicing physical therapist and acupuncturist. She is passionate about helping people achieve their wellness goals from the physical level to the spiritual.